At winter’s end

It is now mid March. The sun’s rays feel stronger and the snow has started to melt into puddles. The cold dreaded month of February is now behind me and soon I’ll be able to ride around on my bike once again.

The last 6 months have gone by fast and although I spent them waiting for the summer I feel a bit melancholic now that the weather is warming. Indeed the heat will surely take its toll on my mind and body as I spend my days filling orders in a sweltering kitchen for hordes of tourists as opposed to the countless hours I’ve sat and scrolled in these last months.

Although I’ve often daydreamed about walking across foreign lands instead of appreciating the moment, I now realize how much I will remember this winter fondly. It was my first spent with a partner and in a beautiful cozy house too. I am so lucky she let me move in with her in her small town so we could spend these dark months in each other’s company.

However my feeling of melancholy is exacerbated by the news of my friend who is leaving his girlfriend after 3 years. It cast doubt over the strength of my own relationship as I thought theirs was one to last. Although I sometimes miss the freedom of bachelorhood I know I am altogether happier now but I still can’t help wondering if it will last. It seems in this age of instant communication and worldwide connection we aren’t as easily satisfiable as we were in decades past.

But as a famous lyric from a famously melancholic band goes: “Seeing too far ahead is not any better than looking behind”. Past life periods will always seem rosy in high sight and it’s no use to worry since unforeseen circumstances abound. The best thing to do is to stay positive and present and to be thankful for the spring.