Cave

I’m sitting in the cave by the road. I feel like it is not me. Like I never supposed to be alone. I don’t know why I went here. I knew this area a little bit. Never noticed this cave though. I was here in summer. Must be an autumn trees revealing those charming grounds.

I was going Albania. But something happened inside. I don’t even know, was it my intuition leading the way or a mind sabotage. Anyway. I spend a couple of nights around civilisation. It was safe and not at the same time. Always people somewhere around. And the same people may not necessarily like me sleeping close by.

So I made a choice to go camping in nature for a while. Towards previous Rainbow location. I found this cave by the road. Made a fire. It got dark pretty quickly. No ppl around. Played some duduk. But now I feel like I miss someone deep. Can I actually be happy here by myself?

I guess no-one is truly happy by themselves. To the dead ideal. But I don’t want my life be controlled by sad moods. My hope is to enjoy whatever I have.