How we give up our own life

There seems to be no point in trying to change anyone. People are not machines, so they will never fit into any abstract view that we might imagine. Be it an ideal picture, or just a minor changing in a certain aspect. We can project our view on the person over and over again, until they adapt. But will it make them happy?

You follow a set of rules coming from someone, and don’t know why. Those rules become important to you. May be more important than they actually are. Can our rules and ways of life be more or less important than someones else? Everyone should question things. Is it also a rule?

And yet most people like to follow rules. It is easy and does not require to have any responsibility. Someone is doing things around the town, we use it. So back off, everybody, just want to do my stuff and relax otherwise! And that is why big cities are huge traps in that sense.

Now all the stuff, like comforts, was given to us for the use, and there is almost no way around. Those who are in control of the stuff say well, you are using the stuff, now follow the rules that we make. So a certain set of rules and way of life is promoted from the ruling class down to people through this. Would a single man be able to question a huge factory standing by?

Why this happens? Because we don’t want to be more autonomous and take responsibility for our own life. Cause it is hard to push this in the current world. And yet it seems to be the mass need nowadays. Erupting out as a psychosis here and there.

People don’t want to use decentralised money. Part would have primitivist reasons. But the lion's share simply can not take responsibility when falling into fraud. Any responsibility is passed to the authorities. For some reason there are so many of them, and everyone is so interested. You can not simply send some money to the friend.

Trust issues are everywhere, hence the judicial apparatus is blossoming. Marriage with the government goes so tight. You end up in jail for standing with the white board on the street. While the other guy will officially kill people at war. And the media will make sure that the correct sentiment is passed.

In such situation blaming others is a simple outcome. We focus our energy on this. Not accepting the fact, that it is "I" who hates, and "I" am a separate autonomous thing from the subject. Anger toward politicians, neighbours, everything else, but not myself. And then there is a self hate. Putting a blame on yourself. And again, am "I" the blame that I put on myself?

It seems to be very normal mechanism of a human being. And we all want to help each other. But it became harder to do so. Harder to pass the truth to alleviate the tension. Our social apparatus is malfunction to an extend, similar to the human body, and it is unable to train certain muscles during the simple walk through the life.

Some conflict grows inside when we follow. We can turn this emotion off and just let someone rule us. Giving off our own responsibility for our own lives. Blindly following. And then having a hard time to fit into this. Counting on some authority. And yet we know that no one is ideal. Things are just too hard to change. So we give up. We become robots at work, and then we pass this tension to our closest ones twofold.

But this emotion during the participation is actually what points us to our true selves. At least we can grow an anger inside. Following the rules, but being angry. Not the best scenario. Just a poison that erodes us. Doesn’t matter, it is important! It can be a different emotion though, may be more constructive. Even better. And where this emotion comes from? From us. Lost somewhere deep inside.

The weary conflict of trying to fit into this set of rules that were imposed on us by us shows us. It is a rejection of ourselves, being unable to fit. Since whoever imposed on you rejects you unless you fit. If we recognise whatever emotion we experience in the process and accept it as it is, it is possible to transform it into fuel of action. Whatever it means to you.

That being said there is nothing wrong in who we are. Any emotion is a great tool to control our boundaries. And for enjoyment whatever we live. The only issue is we are giving it up in favour of a Machine.